I know it’s been awhile since I’ve written because, to be honest, I forgot I had a blog! 😂
But since my last update, I finished my first semester semester of teaching, took an amazing trip to Bali with my best friend, and started my second semester of teaching. The first semester was an altogether awkward trial that went amazingly well. However, this second semester has been a bit more challenging because classes keep getting cancelled for random reasons. I can’t help but feel like I’m failing my kids simply because I haven’t been able to teach them regularly. But I’m learning to roll with the punches and deal with the boredom that coincides with sitting at a desk and not teaching. Plus, my classes have started to get cancelled less this past week and I’m hoping this trend continues!
December was awesome! My school was participating in sports week (mix of field day with track and field) on the 25th so I didn’t get a Christmas this year… which was very strange. Thankfully though, that didn’t bother me too much because the next day my family arrived in Thailand! I waited, not so patiently, at the airport where every time someone exited I got more anxious. When it was finally my family I did, what I told my friend I definietly wouldn’t do… I cried, in the middle of the airport making a scene like a fool but I don’t even care!
We then had the most surreal 5 days together. It felt as if the past year apart hadn’t happened and certainly didn’t feel like it would be another year until we were reunited again. We saw the sites, walked with elephants and talked about everything! I even got them as obsessed with 7-eleven as I am (those of you in America won’t understand unless you’ve been to an Asian 7-eleven, they’re just better). Though, the pinnacle moment for me was introducing them to my host family. My worlds collided and they all got along so well, despite not being able to communicate very well. It was a fantastic trip that filled me with so much happiness!
January rolled around and my co-hort and I had officially been here for 1 year. With that corresponds the infamous “one year slump” in Peace Corps. Oh boy do I hate to admit that I fit a norm, but I can’t deny that it has been a slump. I think mine was caused from saying goodbye to my family for another year, as well as not feeling successful in my teaching, plus just an altogether loneliness I feel living in a community where I can’t fully communicate with anyone.
But I’ve made the decision to stop looking big picture when I start to feel these emotions because they’re just too overwhelming. Instead, I’m going to start appreciating the little things. Such as a class that went successfully, a moment of bonding with my host family, a student answering a question outside of class, being greeted with a thousand “good morning Teacher!” everyday and the phone calls with my friends and family. I’m going to soak in these moments no matter how small they may seem and hope they build up to slowly pull me out of this slump! And after a great trip to Krabi (the most beautiful beaches I’ve seen in my life) with my friend plus a Sunday filled with phone calls, I feel myself getting better already.
Don’t get me wrong though, I am so happy that I’m getting this experience no matter how hard it gets. I’ve grown a lot, learned an insane amount and met some of the most amazing people that will be in my life forever! I didn’t sign up for Peace Corps thinking it’d be easy so I’m well prepared to grin and bear the hard aspects. As I approach my half way point this month, I can look back on my service thus far and think of some of the best times in my life, some true lows and every emotion in between!